Prayer sessions are just amazing, how they can change my perception. Just now during prayer session really cried like mad. Just felt like God was really the only one who understood how i felt, how stressed i am. I felt God really spoke to me today. He taught me many lessons too. :)

#1. I gotta rely on His supernatural strength, wisdom and memory space.
Dad and nat prayed exactly the same thing, for supernatural wisdom. Supernatural. God IS supernatural. Just felt Him telling me that everything will be alright, that even when i cant, He can. Although through my human abilities that its impossible, God is telling me that it will be possible. I always say my mid years i did well because of luck, but i realise it wasnt luck but God empowered me to do well! And that i gotta have more faith to put my trust in Him. Reality is so harsh, so scary, so uncertain but God is real. His love will never fail. :) and His promises to me are true, that no matter what happens, its all in God's control. Prelims are so near, honestly, im freaking scared and stressed, but then again, who isnt? But i gotta turn my eyes to God. In Hebrews 11:1 it says, 'Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see'. Its hard to trust and have faith, but God has provided me and led me so far, surely He wouldnt leave me. Im certain He will walk me through. :)

#2. Live by the will of God and live to please Him.
Today, i went w dad and mum for morning session too, the pastor was saying how we gotta live by the will of God. And i really started to wonder, what does God has installed for me? What is my life goal? I really dont know actually. But i felt God wanted me to touch lives, be it youth, adults and even children (: 'Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails.' Proverbs 19:21 I came across this verse today and it speaks the same truth as Jeremiah 29:11, that God has plans for us. However, this verse is different. It really reflects on how we, as humans, have our own personal desires, wishes, hopes and dreams, but all these are not important. At the end of the day, it's only God's purpose that will be real. And whether we live up to that purpose is our choice. Pastor was saying that one day when we die and our souls leave our physical body to go up to heaven, we will have to meet God. Then, He will ask us what have we done in our lives and if we have lived up to the purpose He planned for us. That really got me thinking, what will my answer to God be?

#3. Set an example to the people around you.
The pastor was saying that the state of the society reflects on the church too. How impactful are we? And i felt God really telling me that i need to be a role model to my peers. Be a more positive person, not externally but internally too, that i gotta have the joy of the Lord in me! It was really applicable cause recently, i felt i was no longer as positive as i was before. I gotta start speaking words of positivity! :) 1 Timothy 4:12 also says 'Do not let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.' I realise i always say 'im too young' or 'cannot la, im not of age', but then i realise i cant say that because every single thing i do can indeed make a difference. I felt God say to me 'Dont say you cant because you are young, but say you can because you are young'. Age is just a number, it limits us but its also an advantage. That we can impact our generation, that how we live can reflect God's goodness in our lives. I wanna make a difference, i wanna be someone that can influence others in the right way, i wanna let people look up to me and think, why is she so positive? What is keeping her going? Who is this God that makes her so strong? Who is this God that she is so committed to? And lastly, hopefully, can i know this God too? :) big dreams begin with a small step!

#4 Lonliness.
Yes, God spoke to me about lonliness. After all, siblings are going back to uni life soon, and i was just saying that Im going to be alone. I realise that lonliness is a fear that has always been in me but i never acknowledged it as a fear in my life. And today, God really put this question in my head, 'why are you lonely when you have me?' it's really true. :) God is my comforter in times of sorrow,provider in times of need and my friend, always. Pastor said this line 'talk to God and just tell him what you're feeling' smth like that. And i realise, yeah, i have this God who is indeed always there for me. :)

It's really amazing how after i read the bible or go for prayer sessions, i feel so... Awaken. Like life is different from the way i see it. It's so easy to say all these after a whole day of prayer sessions. It's always the case. And thats why im jotting it down. (: weilin, remember, God is REAL.
R - rest in Him, find peace.
E - everlasting, He lives forever.
A - abundant love, greater than any other
L - looking out for you, from heaven.
:)