kay, my blog is really dead and everything.
but i am damn bored at home.
the house is so silent.
i dont feel like doing work.
neither do i feel like eating dinner.
so i am here writing crap.

really stressed out about school work and everything.
stupid grades just keep dropping.
memory is failing me, everytime forgetting this, forgetting that.
it's just so damn annoying.
now whenever i get a low mark in tests or whatever shit,
i just go, "hmmm, okay. at least i didnt fail."
it just seems so normal not to do well anymore.
sigh, oh well.
i totally need to start mugging, i am lagging behind so badly.

trainings have been pretty good.
getting along well with the juniors and everything.
muscles aching like i-dunno-how-to-describe-pain feeling.
cant even walk down stairs w/o feeling the slightest bit of pain.
but i just love trainings so much,
it gives me a sense of satisfaction whenever training is over.
like, "wow, i just survived another day of training without dying" kinda feeling.
it's just so awesome.
and seeing myself improve and being able to do things a couldnt do last year,
whoa. that's the best part.
i'm so glad i joined rockclimbing.
it's full of awesome people.
people that you know are there to hear you crap, people to complain how sucky teachers can be,
people to go high with you, people there to cheer you up whenever a tear comes flowing down,
people who study and mug with you during recesses, people who encourages you until they lose their voice and so much much more.
i dunno how i will survive without them constantly by my side.

church is the best place to be of all.
worship is such an awesome feeling, awesome beyond measure.
that when you jump, you just wanna go high with your cell.
whoa, i love worship tttm.
pastor's sermon always seems to speak to me one way or another.
like when i am lost in life or whatever, a sermon would just appear like on that particular sunday saying that god has his plans for me.
my cell sisters always are there for me to talk to,
and always cheer me up.
so awesome so awesome.
i always know god has his plans for me.
"For i know the plans i have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
everytime i think of that verse, i know that whatever shit and crap i am going through right now in life,
god will give me his provision. :D

it seems so awesome to blog again.
it's like talking to myself, like a diary.
just that i can express myself betetr since it's faster and easier to type than write.
i wanna delete this blog kinda thing.
but then if i am bored like now i wont have anything to do,
or anywhere to type.
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