DATE: Saturday, March 14, 2009 TIME: 3:26 PM
"whats so wrong about smiling?is it a crime to smile?why does teachers scold me for smiling,i just don't get it.doesn't the saying goes: a smile can make a person's day?so whats exactly wrong with smiling?"yesterday.coach melissa scolded some of us for not being focus during training.and i think you've guessed it,she scolded me for smiling.2 times!for goodness sake,2 freaking times.and she reported evrything to Mr Tay.in the end,the jog at the end of training became longer.Mr Tay lead the jog.didnt even let us warmed down.he started lecturing us.could tell he was damn pissed off with us.it really was scary to see him so pissed off.i dunno why.but i felt so guilty.after dismissing us,he just stormed off.leaving us all in shock.{at least i think so}only whispers could be heard.went home with justin, jonathan, isaac, david and claire.i didn't spoeak the whole time.i felt so down.i felt so guilty.and i didn't know exactly why.i guess it was because of coach melissa's scolding.i sobbed as i walked ahead of the others.thinking how life was so different compared to my ex-life in primary school.how my smile was so much appreciated last time and how it isn't now.i guess i have to change.i can't smile that much.but it isn't my fault.i naturally like to smile.and i dunno why.everytimg i think of the whole smiling incident,i always feel like crying.i know when to smile.but when i don't smile,it seems to teachers that i am smiling...it always does...but i'm really glad to have friends there for me to cheer me up.i'm really glad.(:
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